Friday, June 26, 2009

A New Beginning!

Musta? Did you like my new Ian's Haven? Gundam-inspired ako ngayon - Perfect Soldier in its finest! At sasamahan natin yan ng madramang background music! Teka.... nasaan na ang background music?!

Hmmm.... Anyways, medyo malungkot ang buhay ko ngayon - a heartache is the last thing I need to wake me up into reality. And now that I am awake, kailangan ko ng maganda-gandang Intro - parang Phoenix ba - namatay at nabuhay na muli from the ashes of my own accursed hellfire.

It has to be portrayed by a Phoenix-like figure - something that has Wings to represent flight and freedom, a very macho-like appearance for strength, but it should also be of very great stance and form to show grace and appeal.

Think.. think... think.... Aha!!!!

Eto ang ultimate come back ni Ian Recio!!!





Astig.... sana may Ganyan din ako tapos lahat ng may atraso sa kin KAKANYUNIN KO... eh?!.... That last phrase didn't sound right....
^_^'
God, I'm so unlucky...

Update: Nasira ko yung bago kong gundam template para sa blog ko, so medyo ala ring kwenta ang blog post na to...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The Purpose of Ian's Haven - Unrequited Love

I know that actually there is not a lot of people who knows this page. Nobody knows why this blogspot exists except me ofcourse.

Today is the day I graduated as an engineer. And today is also the day that I discovered that the love I cherished for a very long time is actually an unrequited love. This day, which should have been a very fulfilling day, became the day that I realized why I created "Ian's Haven".

A Haven is actually a place where i could rest and a place to protect against the outer elements. It is not a house nor a home. It is not a house because a house is a material object that we could physically rest our tired body and physically protect us from harm. It is not a home because a home gives our soul and mind a sense of metaphysical rest, as well as emotional nourishment through the help of our family. 

If a house could not give your body a rest, and a home could not give a family-like comfort, where else could you go? Just like how wolverine said it: "Home is not where the heart is - it's where we go when there is no other place to go".

A haven is a metaphysical place where no one could comfort you but yourself. A house is just a house, and I really really never believed in the principle of having a home. That is why I believe that a haven is a suitable place for me.

My Haven - ian's haven is a place where I could comfort my self from the emotional harm, speak my feakin mind out, and be myself without the words of the outside world. It is my retreat, it is my hiding place...

Today is the day that I gave up in the concept of love. In the beginning of my self-awakening, I just realized that I don't really believe in God, but I believe in love. Eventhough I was hurt, I still held on the idea of love. But now, everything changed. I just realized that even if I give my heart and soul in loving a person, it will never make me happy. A man could never ever give unconditional love.

Only God could give unconditional love. He could give it without expecting anything in return. I tried to immitate that - having faith that I could also give something without asking something in return. I envy God so much - so envious that it became hatred. I hate God, and that turned into not believing in his words. But after all, I am still afraid of Him.

I love her, the girl who believes in God. As a matter of fact, she is the closest thing to God that I could ever know. I gave to her the faith I never gave God. I told her, that she can do a lot of things if she will believe. I love her. But I never expected her to love me in return.

But I am human. As a human being I feel fear. I fear of being alone and lonely. The fear of being forgotten. I fear of not feeling special. And as a human being, I suddenly wanted something. I want to be loved.

But I do not know love. I do not know how it happens, how it is conceived, and how to nurture it. I just want it.

And now I know that it is over, I am in chaos. Lost. Being with her is all that is in my mind. It kept me on thinking that maybe it is best this way. But it hurts, it hurts so much that it makes me think of nothing else.

I feel separated from myself. I feel like half of me is liberated by saying "I love you", and half of me is turning dark because of the melancholy love brought onto me. Somebody save me please.

That is what brought me back to the reason why I created Ian's Haven. Even though I do not believe in God, I still am looking for his grace, asking him to let me see his face, so that I could start believing again. Asking him to bless my haven, to keep it safe and warm for my heart to heal.

It's cold in here. It is so hard for a person who doesn't know love, to ask for love in return. I wonder how far my haven could shelter me. I have a lot of things to say, but they just couldn't keep on staying in my mind for me write them out. 

Emptiness and hopelessness are in my heart right now. If only somebody could save me now..
I'm just waiting in my Haven. So please, come visit me. Please...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Gundam vs Voltes V

I'm a gundam fanatic. My favorite is Gundam Wing. And when people say that Gundams are just another kid stuff, I highly disagree. They are the epitome of what the human imagination can design.....

Cut the crap, you know what I mean - hindi sila basta-basta robot na dapat ikumpara sa Voltes V o kaya Daimos na akala mo walang logic na basta na lang naging robot na sumisipa at maraming weapons. I mean, look at this:


Mukha ba syang ordinaryong "robot" lamang?! This thing is a beautiful work of art!
Ikumpara sa pambansang robot ng Pilipinas:


Mukhang timang talaga si Voltes V. Biruin mo si Voltes V may piloto kahit sa paa?
Sa paa, na kanya ring isinisipa sa kalaban?

Oh, tingnan nyo to - ito ang latest na gundam na ipo-produce ngayon. Tingnan nyo mabuti na walang panama si Voltes Cinco sa kanya - Unicorn Gundam:


Oh di ba? Panis! Kaso nung nireresearch ko yung history ng gundam, nakita ko na 1979 ipinalabas ang kauna-unahang Gundam series, samantalang ang Voltes V was aired in Japan in 1977. So naconfuze ako - bakit mas maganda ang mga Gundams kesa kay Voltes V?

Nashock ako nung mapanood ko ang unang opening theme ng kauna-unahang Gundam series - tapos nasabi ko sa sarili ko - I love you, Voltes V:



Holy Cow.... I guess I should ask for absolution from those I offended, saying Voltes V is a wuss...

Saturday, June 6, 2009

My Hobby for Life



Actually I won't call it a hobby anymore. It's already an addiction. Dati mga maliliit lang ang kinukolekta ko, kaso nasira na sila lahat (huhuhu...). Kaya eto, gumagawa na ko ng bagong set ng koleksyon. Ü

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Di po si Hayden Kho yun... Ako po Yun!!!

This blog is about the sex scandal in which Katrina Halili's 'lust video' was taken via a hidden voyeur camera by Hayden Kho while they were doing their lovey-dovey in a private room somewhere out there.
The video was meant to be a private trophy for Hayden, but some vengeful spirit (whoever that is!) released the video in (cyber)space, where a lot of spectators gasped in shock (saying, "Si Katrina ba yun? ang labo naman...).

The face of Katrina Halili was further identified with a shocking video of Katrina dancing to the tune of "Careless Whisper" (really, really careless... hehe..). The video showed some hint of drug abuse by the actress, which to this date, she denies profusely.

This video made Katrina Halili squirm for justice which lead to the Senate's hunger for the video, err, I mean hunger for a hearing.. haha (F*CK ALL STUPID POLITICIANS TO DEATH!!! T*NG-IN* NYO, DYAN KAYO MAGALING!) Hayden's reputation as a doctor hangs in a thread due to this 'monstrosity' (as dubbed by the general public) which to my opinion is Hayden's "kinky hobby"...

But this is what's really going on - Di po si Hayden yung nasa video. That was yours truly on the film!

Opo - You heard it right. Di po si Hayden Kho and tao sa likod ng video na yun. Ako po yun!!!
In fact, yung senate hearing po na naganap ay isang prerecorded mock video kung saan pinalitan po ang aking mukha ng mug shots ni Hayden Kho. Eto po ang katibayan:

Hmmmm.... weird, it should be me, not Atoy Co.. Anyways, teka - let me search my gallery....... Ayun! Eto na:


Kitang-kita nyo po kung gaano ako napahiya sa lahat ng tao mas lalo na sa harap ng mga f*cking politicians pagkatapos ng aking voyeurism... Pero sa totoo lang po it all started with this painting of Katrina and me:



Well... hindi po sya as enticing as the video pero kitang-kita nyo po ang ligaya sa aking mukha na lubos ko pong pinagsisisihan.... At least di ako pinaliguan ng mineral water sa hearing... haha!

Pero, kidding aside, it reminds me of the almost-the-same sex scandal that happened in Hongkong a few years before this remake here in the Philippines. It was between the actor Edison Chen and the sensational (and supposedly reserved and modest) Gillian Chung. Not only Gillian Chung but as well as another actress named Cecilia Cheung (which in my opinion is an analogy of Maricar Reyes who was allegedly involved in another sex video with Hayden Kho) and alot more actresses.

My opinion regarding the sex video of Kho-Halili is that why on earth should a lot of people be so f*cking concerned about this matter. I mean, it's not the first case of any sex videos released in the country with the same story of voyeurism and sexual eroticism (remember Ethel Booba and that Basketball player?). They really really made a media sensation out of it. Nakaka bad trip, because it really wouldn't be an issue in which we really need to spend a lot of time and effort specially on the side of the politicians. Ang daming nagugutom sa pilipinas, sex video pa ang nasa utak nyo.

As of Katrina, I really really believe it was a foolish move for her to reveal to the world her sexual prowess to an absurd level. The sex video was not even worth a mug shot. Umamin ka naman t*nga ka eh di ka naman mamukhaan sa video. Mas nakikita pa nga ang kep*as mo kesa sa mukha mo. You were crying alot during the senate hearing, which annoys me a lot kasi sarap na sarap ka sa ginawa sayo ni Hayden during your sexcapades. So ipagpalagay na nga na natin na your a victim of such monstrousity, to go public about it was Whoa! To the next level talaga. As compared to Maricar Reyes' video, mas masasabi mo talaga na mas malaki ang karapatan nya na magreklamo kesa sa yo, because one could really tell that it's her (well, of course it's my opinion).
Oh well, since nandyan na yan, go-go-go for the justice, pero you can never remove from the masses' mind that you were once the Katrina Halili who shoved her p*ssy up towards Hayden's face...

As of Hayden, there's only two words for you - Gago ka. Natikman mo na nga, may video ka pa. At ang dami nila. Such kind of eroticism is just unbelievable. Iba na talaga kapag may influence ka. Well there's another two words for you -Tanga ka. You're stepping inside the world of celebrities in spite the fact that you have a secret like that, nagpabaya ka pa. I don't know, but I guess you really really are sorry aren't you? Well, kung tatanggalan ka ng lisensya because of that, it's kinda irrelevant, but assuming na may lalapit pa sayo na normal na tao - alisan ka na nga lang ng lisensya.

To Lolit Solis and the 'Mother' -anak ng teteng... Ano ba yan?! Sawsaw kayo ng sawsaw, kaya lumalala ang issue. I really do not respect these kind of people. They are always talking non-sense to the public. Remember Lolit Solis' past endeavors with scams and scandals?.... i mean, who wants to listen to these bunch of rants? What good difference would your opinions do to the already gangrenous situation? Sana may laman naman ang sinasabi nyo, hindi puro pa-amboy at papansin lang! Worthless trashes! Burn in hell!

I haven't heard a thing from Maricar Reyes (google her, err, I mean google her name to know who she is) but I found her action to keep it down and silent quiet decent. But I also recommend that she take legal actions in a private manner. It would be very very difficult though, kasi walang iginagalang ang media (parang sex video, tira lang ng tira, kasi bastos ang mga yan at walang remorse, at hindi iniisip ang consequences para sa ibang tao), so I guess it really wasn't a good idea at all - opinion lang naman...

And finally, to those f*cking politicians of our beloved Philippines!....
GRARARUGESEEARExayuwcubvrNRPNR!!!!
The country is suffering from more serious problems, and this is your idea of saving the country?! Bullocks! How about the issue of mass unemployment?! How about the issue of the country's competitiveness in the global market?! How about the issue of squatting and housing inadequacy?!Poverty?! Quality Education?! Military Prowess and Nationalism?! Terrorism?! Graft and Corruption?! Nepotism?! Megalomania?! And your top priority of that moment is what? Justice against Sexual Perversion?! T*NG-IN* NYO!!!
They could have just handled the matter privately with the judges and the lawyers, hindi naman kayo kailangan dyan! Biruin mo ang Senado sumawsaw sa SEX SCANDAL! Hanep!!!!

Bottom line, a wound cannot be cured by placing another wound on top of the other, but it is better not to subject ourselves to the things that we know would eventually cause us wounds than to wound ourselves because we know that it is sensationally good! - BECAUSE THAT'S MASOCHISM! SHET! >;-@ geez... too much news and current affairs really pisses me off...

For reference, I give you the careless whisper video. Enjoy!:


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Sex Scandal: Sa Flat namin.. Mismo!

Di ko alam kung paano sisimulan ang kwento, but it's fucking weird... yeah, you heard me right -fucking weird! Kasi sa dinami-dami ng lugar na pwedeng paglabasan ng init ng katawan, bakit dito pa sa flat namin! Kapal talaga!...

Well, kasi di namin talaga inaasahan na may makikita kaming ganito sa bahay, pero for morality's sake naman! Di na nahiya sa mga kasambahay! This is outrageous!

It all started when we kinda noticed the room (large room, you couldn't actually sense when someone's coming...). We knew they were there, but knowing that they are nice couples, pumasok kami to... you know, talk and chat... To our surprise - Aba! - patay ang lights! But we could hear the moans.... So we grabbed anything we can grab - not our dicks and cunts - the camera ofcourse and Kaboom! we saw them broke the law of the house!

At eto pa, nung mapansin nila na may camera na nakatutok, what do you expect - they covered their faces.... well, for evidence, eto po ang mga photos mga kababayan!:

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Uy, gusto makita... ^_^
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Well, pasensya na.... Mukhang may mali ata sa mga pictures na to..... Di ko lang masabi kung ano....
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Ah, mali yung sequencing! Dapat nahuli yung picture na nagkabukingan na!.... ^_^'....

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Wala nang Bawian!(Sa Pirmahan!)



Hehe... We're done in 2 days. How's that for a slice of fried gold? Ü
Electrolysis Device: OK!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Yeah!...... Ano bang Okasyon?...


Happy Mother's Day! Panis kayong lahat! hmm.... Ano na kaya ang ginagawgaw (no typo here!) ni nanay ngayon?... I heard she's not feeling well today... well. I sent a few sms to her yesterday, but no replies (kasi dinala lahat ng mga pamangkin ko yung mobile phones mula probinsiya, including my old k850 na pagaari ni nanay. Dammit naman oh.. wag nyong agawan ng cellphone yung matanda!) Anyways, wait for me Mom! I'm coming home soon! just a few signatures and I'll be coming home!!! ^_^

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Farewell, My Beloved Miyabi-San(huhuhuhu....)
















Sigh.... I can't remember the first time I have seen the face of this half Japanese-half French-Canadian beauty that has been haunting my pc and mobile phones for almost 3 years now. I only knew her by the name Miyabi, and have always been admiring her by that special name - Miyabi-San...

Sigh... Miyabi-San... I've always been admiring your pretty face since then.. Always smiling, always shining. It's always all for me. Your eyes so innocent, so pure. Your lips so true, so fateful.. Your cheeks so adorable, so flawless, so natural... You are the reincarnation of Yamato Nadeshiko, you are the embodiment of Maria Clara.... 

I've been admiring you for almost three years now, but that fateful day - that very fateful day -  changed my life forever...














I was looking for random names on Wikipedia when I crossed upon a curious name. There I saw this sweet, sweet name Maria Ozawa, and then read her story. She is an AV Idol, and the kind of job she does is something that just blows me away. It is something that keeps your fluids pumping out of bliss. By curiousity, using her sweet but voluptous name, I searched for her face... By shock and awe, by thrill and by shrill I saw her face! I saw her true form! By shock and awe, by thrill and shrill... and then it became by gloom and sadness....

By then, with the fury of my right hand over the mouse and the tears in my eyes I searched for her clues, for her evidences, for her true nature... And there I saw Miyabi-San, in all of her smiles. With those smiles are chunks of mayonnaise spreads across her face, her full chest stucked into my eyes, and those protruding things poking her from behind....
Ahhh.... Miyabi-San..... The day I longed to know you more is the day that I should have wished I never saw you.... The Yamato Nadeshiko of my dreams, is also everybody else's Nadeshiko..... And Maria Clara's finnesse, is as fine as the eye can salivate with.... Your innocent eyes have seen more than my eyes have seen(since my eyes have only seen my own), your lips that I have dreamed of kissing has been kissing more lips a man could have been possessing... and your cheeks so natural, cause it has been bathing with natural resources (and protein too)....
But even though my dreams are shattered, even though Nadeshiko is gone, even though I saw those adult films....Still I'll be looking for your beautiful face... and still be admiring you... from the distance...

Farewell, my beloved Miyabi-San(huhuhuhu....)

PS:
If ever you read this by chance, pahingi na lang ng autograph tsaka give-away porn videos. ^_^ ayoko ng bukkake ha nadidiri ako dun. At tsaka kung sakali mang pupunta ka ng Pinas, papicture tayo ha. Tapos ipopost ko sa net.....

Pero di ko talaga akalain, sa totoo lang na.... ganun ka pala....  

Friday, April 10, 2009

Can't Serve Two Masters


I just didn't realize till now that there's something like this in my flat. Ü May Christ ka na may Buddha ka pa. Monotheistic di ba? Hehe.
Holy week na Holy week ganito attitude ko, kasi di natupad yung birthday wish ko, at halos walang nakaalala na kahapon birthday ko (dammit...) Pero ok lang di naman ako bitter (?)
For so long I've been telling people that I don't celebrate my birthday since its during those Sacred days, kaya siguro nasanay ang mga tao na wag na lang alalahanin bday ko... nge... 
Pero ok lang... Wala rin naman akong ipapakain sa kanila kung magdiwang man sa araw ng kaarawan, so para patas, wala na ring batian ng birhtday ^_^ para walang handaan at gastusan!   

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Maundy Moon


Taken a day before the Holy week. The feeling sure is pretty gloomy... 
Parang premonition na magiging gloomy din ang mga susunod na araw. Well, di naman nakapagtataka kasi nga Holy week na. Or maybe just because within the Holy week din and birthday ko... Sigh... Actually birthday ko April 9, Maundy thursday (Ngayon yun!!!! batiin nyo naman ako!). Basta... I have this feeling that my birthday would be very, very, very sad.... and boring.... 

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Breathing Apparatus using Electrolysis


It's alive... It's alive!!! Kitams? This is my new project - prepared a week before the actual defense (Saan ka pa?!) The title: Breathing Apparatus using Electrolysis. Dinispatsa ko na yung una kasi di gumana.
This pic was taken minutes before the defense. Ang verdict: redefense sa May 6... ;-(

Monday, March 30, 2009

"There's something in this world that no one has seen before. It is gentle and sweet.
Maybe if it could be seen, everyone would fight over it.
That's why no one has ever seen it...

The world hid it so that no one could get their hands on it easily.
However, someday, someone will find it...
The person who deserves it the most will definitely find it..."

Ian's inner self: Gusto ko nang ma-in love ulit... ;-(

Friday, February 20, 2009

Project Studies


My non-working underwater breathing apparatus... One of a kind device... Gagawin kitang Frankenstein - bibigyan kita ng buhay! :@
Latest Update:
Sa bandang huli, naging junk lang sya, shit.... ayun gumagawa ngayon ng Electrolysis, dammit. April 3 na ang defense, parang mas convenient pa ata sa hell... Hayyssss!!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Home Sweet Home - Lipa City


The famous San Sebastian Church of Lipa City. The one place where wicked ones like me dare not enter. :-P Nalulusaw ako sa loob...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Pc - Puyat sa Computer


Di ko mapigilan eh. Nakaka adik magpuyat sa pc...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Bad News, Good News...



Well... Ano ba uunahin ko? Good news o Bad news?

Bad news:

Wala na akong trabaho! yeah! Dahil sa letsugas na global recession na yan (at sa mga malalakas gumamit ng CREDIT CARDS na di naman marunong MAGBAYAD) marami ang nawawalan ng trabaho! DAMN!

Good news:

Actually, ok lang naman nung nawalan ako ng trabaho, kasi nakaka paranoid din kapag nasa byahe ka palang papasok sa trabaho eh panay na ang utos ng amo mo via text messages - kakapraning! At isa pa, binigyan naman kami ng separation pay na medyo nakakapagpataba ng bulsa (hehe). tsaka ako naman yung kusang nagvolunteer na umalis kasi nga working student ako (kaso mukhang paaalisin din naman nila ako, kusa man akong magvolunteer o hinde! Shet ^_^).

Pero eto talaga ang Good news:
Ako kasi laging nagboblog sa net via phone (Sony Ericsson). Yung phone na gamit ko, K850 dinispatsa ko na, di kasi sumikat dito sa Pinas yung model eh (5 MP pa man din), si James Bond kasi inendorso yung sumunod na model (C902). Kaya yung separation pay na nakuha ko ibinili ko ng bagong Cell phone na nakikita nyo ngayon - Dyaran! C905, with 8 MP autofocus camera. Asteg!!! bagong buhay, bagong phone.... Sana di eto ang katapusan ng mga luho ko sa buhay (huhuhuhu ^_^')


Monday, February 2, 2009

Tayong Dalawa


Ang mga jologs nanonood ng Dos. Shit!!! Discovery channel na lang, please... Mother tsaka niece ko mga real teleserye addicts!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I Won!


Second prize: Sony Ericsson World View 2008 Philippines People's Choice Category - a brand new K770i.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas to All!


Pup: mwaah!
Cat: acheche!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Life's Rewards


After all the sleepless days and nights of work and school, this is what I get. THIS is what I get... Makakain nga sa Sbarro...

Friday, November 14, 2008

Stars by Maya Weksler


If you love your parents, especìally your grandparents, you're going to love this video on the net.. Mabuhay ka, Maya Weksler!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Paperworks


Tambak sa trabaho - sabi nila mapapel daw ako sa trabaho. Sabi ko naman, 'mapapel talaga'...

Love and Roses


One of my favorite artworks

Welcome to my Blog!


Hi. My name is Ian.